sorry for this post. just feel like typing it out since no one's coming online at this time.

my dream is ruined. hmm, first thing i recieved a sms in the morning frm ash saying that i must be able to dance ballet.
the next thing i hope she would reply and say, maybe not.
but no, ive to go for an audition which requires me to dance both ballet and contemporary and have a gd english grade, pass at least 4 subs.

tears just rolled down. very emo eh?

blame my parents for not letting me to take up ballet lesson? no.
but ballet is the most impt basic in every dance i can say. learning now, its a lil too late.
good english grade. my o's screwed up like shit alr.

ive been looking forward to get into lasalle but it seems like its gone now.
i always thought lasalle is the one who can save me since i know i wont be able to get into poly. even lasalle doesnt want me now. where can i go? ): i dont like.
i know results not out yet and im typing all these.
i know how badly i did.

fuck the world.

can't i just have the chance to PERFORM ON STAGE? ive been doing that since young and i really enjoy it till now. yea, i can still perform with lush and im really blessed to know them.

its not, not enough to have lush. maybe its just different.

taking up other courses? i am considering. i love to draw but its only when i feel like doing it. how am i gng to take up drawing with this kinda attitude? ive heavy moodswing. lol.

i really dont know what to do. im like disappointing my parents. esp my mum, who always behind me even though ive alr told her that i'll screwed up my o's and allow me to to achieve my own dreams. i just wanna prove it to her that i can do smth else since im not a study material.

fuck everything. emilia, go and die.